I cry to know myself

Sometimes you need to put your mind to rest,let heart take over,let feelings run havoc,good bad whatever it may be,let them express themselves.You will ask what's the use? Well this is called cleansing of soul. Didn't we lose touch of it in our daily life? But how is that you let your inner consciousness come to the forefront?

It's not easy actually.You have buried it so deep it does not come up easily. You gradually lose touch of real you.But try this you will emerge stronger.The weaknesses which come up as tears and anger actually connect with your inner self. Any small event can be a trigger if you are ready to experiment.

I do this to connect with myself.Like I did yesterday. Nothing as such happened,only a small incident which does not deserve my attention at all but yes could have been used efficiently to connect with my inner self. I did just that and I realized so much sadness still remained in me, and the more I took it out I felt light and happy.

It helps to show weakness,if I cry and I am alone I know I have myself with me.No I don't need any support or shoulder to cry :). I can perfectly control my emotions but I wanted them to go loose, see where they go,how I feel at the spur of the moment.What thoughts cross my mind. I got to know myself much better than I did all these days.

I could have kept this exercise to myself but I wanted to take this further,yes I get weak to go more stronger.I wanted to share this since I don't feel ashamed at all I had tears,I had anger seething in me. It would let me emerge more as I want myself to be.

We have to face truth and when I say am optimist I am, after knowing all the negativity. I know the smile which comes to me now is genuine,not fake since I am not forcing. I am in full control of my emotions and yet they are not suffocated.

Do you think this kind of interaction session with yourself will help you?

Mixed emotions

One thing we all dread is mixed emotion. You feel bad about something and at the same time you are happy. Why our thought process is so complex? Or is it that our feelings don't emerge easily.

We have become quite advanced compared to previous generations but have we got any success in the emotional sphere. Are we not lagging behind there? We also rejoice over the fact that we hide our emotions very cleverly.Are we able to hide or we kill it? "Emotional fool" what is the definition of that term. Who is emotional genius then and how is that person different from the geniuses we see everyday. Here I mean the ones who use their brains in the best possible way.

Coming back to mixed emotions.Since we are emotionally intelligent it happens or we are fools and it is a logical result of that? Does the situation make us think that way or we view the situation in a way to give it double tinge?

Family

Life moves fast and we are spending more time with our colleagues(at least those of us who are working) at work than our family. Gradually it seems we are distanced from our near and dear ones, it's not that they are not there, they are but not in the way you would have wanted. The question comes how you want them to be? Nothing much, only the usual dinner together, discussing topics, gossips they all are missing since you don't have time and your family also doesn't have time to indulge in that. You seem lost, seek solace in your work and you get that also but then you ponder over the fact that how life has changed. Can you change it, at least for me I don't think I can. It has to be like this and it will be. Now what is positive in this, it is that you gradually evolve as a person,become more self dependent after all you know you have to struggle on your own. Do I mind or would you mind this situation? Would you like yourself as you would have been earlier emotionally dependent on some member of your family or as you are now dependent on yourself like anything. You know if you falter you won't get chance to lead a second life. I think life is moving fast but at the same time it's teaching us lot of things,fact is how much we are willing to learn depend entirely on us.

Some thoughts again

Sometimes some people just cross their limits. They think they are indispensable and things cannot run without them. Sometimes people think too much from mind and become heartless. Maybe they are successful in whatever they do, but something remains amiss. They don't get peace , reason they never see beyond themselves. Self obsession is their hobby. They think of themselves to be the best but they fail to realize that where life changes every second , there is one gem emerging every moment. Wish people were modest along with being intelligent , we would have done away with lot of troubles all around sigh..................