I cry to know myself

Sometimes you need to put your mind to rest,let heart take over,let feelings run havoc,good bad whatever it may be,let them express themselves.You will ask what's the use? Well this is called cleansing of soul. Didn't we lose touch of it in our daily life? But how is that you let your inner consciousness come to the forefront?

It's not easy actually.You have buried it so deep it does not come up easily. You gradually lose touch of real you.But try this you will emerge stronger.The weaknesses which come up as tears and anger actually connect with your inner self. Any small event can be a trigger if you are ready to experiment.

I do this to connect with myself.Like I did yesterday. Nothing as such happened,only a small incident which does not deserve my attention at all but yes could have been used efficiently to connect with my inner self. I did just that and I realized so much sadness still remained in me, and the more I took it out I felt light and happy.

It helps to show weakness,if I cry and I am alone I know I have myself with me.No I don't need any support or shoulder to cry :). I can perfectly control my emotions but I wanted them to go loose, see where they go,how I feel at the spur of the moment.What thoughts cross my mind. I got to know myself much better than I did all these days.

I could have kept this exercise to myself but I wanted to take this further,yes I get weak to go more stronger.I wanted to share this since I don't feel ashamed at all I had tears,I had anger seething in me. It would let me emerge more as I want myself to be.

We have to face truth and when I say am optimist I am, after knowing all the negativity. I know the smile which comes to me now is genuine,not fake since I am not forcing. I am in full control of my emotions and yet they are not suffocated.

Do you think this kind of interaction session with yourself will help you?

Changes matter or the way?

Changes come in small packages and they are loved that way the most. Why? Wouldn't you like something big? Believe it or not small joys make you more happy since they come in right size to affect you in the way you want. It registers actually. Does that mean you will look for small things to happen and leave aside the major happenings? No not at all but you would like yourself to be prepared fully for that major thing.

You like to enjoy moments, more precisely.You like to relish them in your own way. You don't like any disturbance, you want the change to engulf you in your own sweet way. That is the ideal situation.

But do things happen the way you desire? Of course not, they happen in their own way not how you want them. You are lucky when you find yourself admiring the way they happen.Think about it,they took place in their own way,you took it as a pleasant surprise.

Third situation is, change is happening in its own way, you are thinking of the way you want them.Now the disconnect is there.Does that mean, you will leave track of them or you would be so engrossed in your preferences that the way matters more than the actual thing? Tricky situation isn't it? But then it again depends on you.You can either stick to your likes and dislikes or try to analyze what is actually happening. Isn't that something you wanted but you prefer to forget it.

So changes can either bring you to that perfect situation, you always wanted; you can be lucky if the change is what you always wanted.Next you can be proactive to make the change work for you.

Which way you want the changes? The question remains-changes matter or the way? :)