Sometimes you need to put your mind to rest,let heart take over,let feelings run havoc,good bad whatever it may be,let them express themselves.You will ask what's the use? Well this is called cleansing of soul. Didn't we lose touch of it in our daily life? But how is that you let your inner consciousness come to the forefront?
It's not easy actually.You have buried it so deep it does not come up easily. You gradually lose touch of real you.But try this you will emerge stronger.The weaknesses which come up as tears and anger actually connect with your inner self. Any small event can be a trigger if you are ready to experiment.
I do this to connect with myself.Like I did yesterday. Nothing as such happened,only a small incident which does not deserve my attention at all but yes could have been used efficiently to connect with my inner self. I did just that and I realized so much sadness still remained in me, and the more I took it out I felt light and happy.
It helps to show weakness,if I cry and I am alone I know I have myself with me.No I don't need any support or shoulder to cry :). I can perfectly control my emotions but I wanted them to go loose, see where they go,how I feel at the spur of the moment.What thoughts cross my mind. I got to know myself much better than I did all these days.
I could have kept this exercise to myself but I wanted to take this further,yes I get weak to go more stronger.I wanted to share this since I don't feel ashamed at all I had tears,I had anger seething in me. It would let me emerge more as I want myself to be.
We have to face truth and when I say am optimist I am, after knowing all the negativity. I know the smile which comes to me now is genuine,not fake since I am not forcing. I am in full control of my emotions and yet they are not suffocated.
Do you think this kind of interaction session with yourself will help you?
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Changes matter or the way?
Changes come in small packages and they are loved that way the most. Why? Wouldn't you like something big? Believe it or not small joys make you more happy since they come in right size to affect you in the way you want. It registers actually. Does that mean you will look for small things to happen and leave aside the major happenings? No not at all but you would like yourself to be prepared fully for that major thing.
You like to enjoy moments, more precisely.You like to relish them in your own way. You don't like any disturbance, you want the change to engulf you in your own sweet way. That is the ideal situation.
But do things happen the way you desire? Of course not, they happen in their own way not how you want them. You are lucky when you find yourself admiring the way they happen.Think about it,they took place in their own way,you took it as a pleasant surprise.
Third situation is, change is happening in its own way, you are thinking of the way you want them.Now the disconnect is there.Does that mean, you will leave track of them or you would be so engrossed in your preferences that the way matters more than the actual thing? Tricky situation isn't it? But then it again depends on you.You can either stick to your likes and dislikes or try to analyze what is actually happening. Isn't that something you wanted but you prefer to forget it.
So changes can either bring you to that perfect situation, you always wanted; you can be lucky if the change is what you always wanted.Next you can be proactive to make the change work for you.
Which way you want the changes? The question remains-changes matter or the way? :)
You like to enjoy moments, more precisely.You like to relish them in your own way. You don't like any disturbance, you want the change to engulf you in your own sweet way. That is the ideal situation.
But do things happen the way you desire? Of course not, they happen in their own way not how you want them. You are lucky when you find yourself admiring the way they happen.Think about it,they took place in their own way,you took it as a pleasant surprise.
Third situation is, change is happening in its own way, you are thinking of the way you want them.Now the disconnect is there.Does that mean, you will leave track of them or you would be so engrossed in your preferences that the way matters more than the actual thing? Tricky situation isn't it? But then it again depends on you.You can either stick to your likes and dislikes or try to analyze what is actually happening. Isn't that something you wanted but you prefer to forget it.
So changes can either bring you to that perfect situation, you always wanted; you can be lucky if the change is what you always wanted.Next you can be proactive to make the change work for you.
Which way you want the changes? The question remains-changes matter or the way? :)
Friday, July 23, 2010
It's not simple
People's behavior is so complex.You try to simplify things but they will again make it sound complicated. You tell a simple fact,it gets back to you in a convoluted form. Judgments and analysis all leads to one goal that is make life difficult for yourself and others in the fold.
What I said can be viewed as an angry outburst but the point is if we think calmly, yeah I have taken a deep breath and counted 20 backwards what next? Situation changes, no, attitudes? No? Stupidity nah, shrewdness disguised as innocence no no not at all.So nothing changes, they evolve with flying colors in fact.
So basically I am back to square one and that is again dealing with complications and more complications. My question to myself- come on why I am just being a silent spectator and even if I am reacting it's me who sees it. So didn't I also contribute to the complex situation, yeah absolutely no doubts about that.
Then what right I have to say people make things complex, it's me,who has the major role to play in things happening the way they are around me. I can be a sponge go on absorbing, I can be a vacuum and suck everything or I can be a boomerang and return what comes to me.
The decision is simple and I need to take one of the options soon, sponge I have already been, point remains if I want to deteriorate further and change in a vacuum or change my approach and be a boomerang.
Moreover what I want simplicity or complexity choice is entirely mine, and the choice has to be made again to make life simple or complex :)
What I said can be viewed as an angry outburst but the point is if we think calmly, yeah I have taken a deep breath and counted 20 backwards what next? Situation changes, no, attitudes? No? Stupidity nah, shrewdness disguised as innocence no no not at all.So nothing changes, they evolve with flying colors in fact.
So basically I am back to square one and that is again dealing with complications and more complications. My question to myself- come on why I am just being a silent spectator and even if I am reacting it's me who sees it. So didn't I also contribute to the complex situation, yeah absolutely no doubts about that.
Then what right I have to say people make things complex, it's me,who has the major role to play in things happening the way they are around me. I can be a sponge go on absorbing, I can be a vacuum and suck everything or I can be a boomerang and return what comes to me.
The decision is simple and I need to take one of the options soon, sponge I have already been, point remains if I want to deteriorate further and change in a vacuum or change my approach and be a boomerang.
Moreover what I want simplicity or complexity choice is entirely mine, and the choice has to be made again to make life simple or complex :)
Saturday, June 26, 2010
I will not opt for choices
I keep on learning from people.The more I interact with different people I understand one thing how much is there to know.Each facet of an individual is a lesson in itself. Experiences within a defined sphere is one thing but when it flows out of that boundary then the challenge begins.
How I should behave in a situation where I don't know the factors, don't have an inkling of the rules? It puzzles but it teaches as well.
We can always say we will do this or that.But what if there are no choices or say you just leave out the options. Yes the situation gets more challenging but the learning experience is also there.
It comes to me why I would leave out the choices,I can also say yes or no. Why I have to behave according to the situation, why not create a new situation rather than indulging in something where choices emerge.
But my question to myself is why there will be choices always. Why I will make it so easy for myself to opt in or opt out? Why not stay where I am? Point is why I will, my option is simple-I need to increase my boundary and when you are up to that you leave out the options isn't it. Just follow the path.
It may take me two minutes to go against something but what I would enjoy is spending moments,which teach me and tell one thing take life as it comes. Anyway it never gives you much of choice either accept it or go against it.
For me choices are in front of my eyes but I would rather not choose them :).
How I should behave in a situation where I don't know the factors, don't have an inkling of the rules? It puzzles but it teaches as well.
We can always say we will do this or that.But what if there are no choices or say you just leave out the options. Yes the situation gets more challenging but the learning experience is also there.
It comes to me why I would leave out the choices,I can also say yes or no. Why I have to behave according to the situation, why not create a new situation rather than indulging in something where choices emerge.
But my question to myself is why there will be choices always. Why I will make it so easy for myself to opt in or opt out? Why not stay where I am? Point is why I will, my option is simple-I need to increase my boundary and when you are up to that you leave out the options isn't it. Just follow the path.
It may take me two minutes to go against something but what I would enjoy is spending moments,which teach me and tell one thing take life as it comes. Anyway it never gives you much of choice either accept it or go against it.
For me choices are in front of my eyes but I would rather not choose them :).
Friday, June 4, 2010
I created I know
Something disturbs. When you give 100% and the output comes as 70% or even 60% and the rest are just fillers with no real value;that is the time to worry. You worry because apparently the output seems 100% but it's not.
Why the gap and why something superficial needed to fill in the gap? You worry more when you are involved in a process but someone else starts analyzing it. It's like someone just checks the output box in the flow chart and present the analysis.The input, the decision making, the throughput all is ignored.
This is the time when things take dangerous turn. It bends both ways, good or even crumble to worse. What to do? How to tackle this situation? You cannot repeat the same process again. You cannot change some one's analysis. You know only your process which you carved with determination and hard work.
This time you need to let things take their turn. Once you see it's changing for the worse you need to pitch in. Situation may have been turned against you, the process which you carried on will always be yours and no one can change it however hard they may try. Also they won't because the analysis is dependent on the process.
We can call a day a bad day or good day but it starts with a morning, evolves in a day, cools down in an evening and sleeps into a night. The process is the same, our analysis is different towards it. We can alienate ourselves from the analysis we cannot from the process.
And if a day is filled with wasted time and we say that the day is good that is entirely our fault. Since this good day is going to make us feel bad in coming days.Process and analysis should go on side by side not separately, it is bound to differ.
Why the gap and why something superficial needed to fill in the gap? You worry more when you are involved in a process but someone else starts analyzing it. It's like someone just checks the output box in the flow chart and present the analysis.The input, the decision making, the throughput all is ignored.
This is the time when things take dangerous turn. It bends both ways, good or even crumble to worse. What to do? How to tackle this situation? You cannot repeat the same process again. You cannot change some one's analysis. You know only your process which you carved with determination and hard work.
This time you need to let things take their turn. Once you see it's changing for the worse you need to pitch in. Situation may have been turned against you, the process which you carried on will always be yours and no one can change it however hard they may try. Also they won't because the analysis is dependent on the process.
We can call a day a bad day or good day but it starts with a morning, evolves in a day, cools down in an evening and sleeps into a night. The process is the same, our analysis is different towards it. We can alienate ourselves from the analysis we cannot from the process.
And if a day is filled with wasted time and we say that the day is good that is entirely our fault. Since this good day is going to make us feel bad in coming days.Process and analysis should go on side by side not separately, it is bound to differ.
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Last call
I heard loud and clear,
It was just another call,
But this time the ears slept,
The heart soaked all the words,
The voice was never heard,
The feelings never lost,
I just heard that call...
It was just another call,
But this time the ears slept,
The heart soaked all the words,
The voice was never heard,
The feelings never lost,
I just heard that call...
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Take 25
This note I have written in Facebook,actually this was a part of an exercise which my dear friend @hnatarajan motivated me to do. He tagged me in a note which include 25 random thoughts about him, now whoever was tagged in the note also had to share 25 thoughts about themselves ranging from habits,interests,liking whatever which came to mind first. Presenting those 25 thoughts here.
1) Live life as it comes
2) Positive always,can't stay with negative feelings/thoughts.
3)Try to analyze things sometimes I fail sometimes I do succeed :)
4) Hope is a big word for me it is strength.
5) Thoughts pour in at odd times which I can't write then they either fade away or stay in me only.
6)I look forward to knowing more people, why just to understand my existence.
7) I tend to be philosophical.I think this much is enough.
8) I feel heart is more stronger than head believe it or not.
9) Everything has a reason so it happens.
10) I look forward to see myself in middle of politics one day
11) I left writing poems
12) I have become like an instant coffee more into tweets than blogs or posts.
13) Temper is one thing I need to control more,have done that mostly but still some work is left.
14) My patience level has increased, life was a strict teacher in this department.
15) I don't believe much in planning.
16) I generally don't take no for an answer :) like to persuade people,then I think maybe they are right and me wrong,maybe is the big word
17)I like being frank and want people also to be the same, mostly that doesn't happen though.
18) I lose patience when I have do something about me like am losing patience to write more about me here lol
19) I don't believe in stereotyped rules
20) I like discipline
21) Punctuality is something I admire
22) For me a work has to be done now,can't leave it for tomorrow
23) Am sensitive
24) I like to learn new things
25) I am lazy so am not checking what all I have written :)
1) Live life as it comes
2) Positive always,can't stay with negative feelings/thoughts.
3)Try to analyze things sometimes I fail sometimes I do succeed :)
4) Hope is a big word for me it is strength.
5) Thoughts pour in at odd times which I can't write then they either fade away or stay in me only.
6)I look forward to knowing more people, why just to understand my existence.
7) I tend to be philosophical.I think this much is enough.
8) I feel heart is more stronger than head believe it or not.
9) Everything has a reason so it happens.
10) I look forward to see myself in middle of politics one day
11) I left writing poems
12) I have become like an instant coffee more into tweets than blogs or posts.
13) Temper is one thing I need to control more,have done that mostly but still some work is left.
14) My patience level has increased, life was a strict teacher in this department.
15) I don't believe much in planning.
16) I generally don't take no for an answer :) like to persuade people,then I think maybe they are right and me wrong,maybe is the big word
17)I like being frank and want people also to be the same, mostly that doesn't happen though.
18) I lose patience when I have do something about me like am losing patience to write more about me here lol
19) I don't believe in stereotyped rules
20) I like discipline
21) Punctuality is something I admire
22) For me a work has to be done now,can't leave it for tomorrow
23) Am sensitive
24) I like to learn new things
25) I am lazy so am not checking what all I have written :)
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