The soul cried in agony,
The silence never heard it,
It waited for at least a whisper,
Which was nowhere to be heard.
It thought for a while,
And then screamed loudly,
Blood and feelings,
Both drained out from its heart.
Heart? But did it have a heart?
Where was it?
Why it never realized it was there?
The sorrow, the sadness aroused it.
Made it aware it was a living soul,
Not a dead one...
It wanted to live,
Live for one it loved,
Live for the moments which brought happiness,
But was that to be?
It had already started walking on the path which led to end,
Soon everything which attracted it will vanish,
It won't die but its persona would.
The truth was ruthless.
It somehow killed it.
The soul kept on thinking,
How to convey to everyone,
It was about to leave,
And that it deserved,
What it wished for.
But who was listening to it?
Not a soul, not a whisper,
It craved for someone to talk to,
The silence was tearing it to pieces.
Was it preparing for the end?
Or it has finished and this was the end.
The path which it was walking on,
Did that take it to the end?
Or this was the journey of death?
But then how it can still feel?
How thoughts still came to its mind?
Why pain still brought tears?
Why anger still disturbed it?
Was it dead but living?
Or living but dead?
The dilemma continued...
The soul decided it will live,
Live on its own terms,
Love in its own way,
Tears, smiles, laughter all will come,
But they would on its own.
It will not ask for anything now.
Since it stopped asking for life,
And it never asked for death....
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Sunday, February 13, 2011
The Breakup
The stone was lying like that,
Unattended, discarded, forgotten,
The wind sometimes hurled abuse at it,
The rain drops cursed themselves when they fell on it,
The sun and the moon were its only companion
But it didn’t pay much heed to their existence,
They only added the difference it wanted.
One day it decided to change,
The stone thought it will greet anyone who looks its way,
It did not know what care was,
So if anyone looked at it,
That was quite important.
Then that day the earth decided to release its pressure,
The creations were destroyed,
The trees, the river, the flowers, the creatures all shrieked in fear.
The stone was happy.
It didn’t know why, but it was.
It broke into two,
It could see itself,
The agony of solitude was gone,
It had some company.
The sun came out again,
Life limped back to where it was,
But the life of the stone was changed forever…
Unattended, discarded, forgotten,
The wind sometimes hurled abuse at it,
The rain drops cursed themselves when they fell on it,
The sun and the moon were its only companion
But it didn’t pay much heed to their existence,
They only added the difference it wanted.
One day it decided to change,
The stone thought it will greet anyone who looks its way,
It did not know what care was,
So if anyone looked at it,
That was quite important.
Then that day the earth decided to release its pressure,
The creations were destroyed,
The trees, the river, the flowers, the creatures all shrieked in fear.
The stone was happy.
It didn’t know why, but it was.
It broke into two,
It could see itself,
The agony of solitude was gone,
It had some company.
The sun came out again,
Life limped back to where it was,
But the life of the stone was changed forever…
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Social Media Connect with the Soul
How it would feel to be connected, when I am there in another world? This random thought crossed my mind today while I was returning home after work. Why it came I have no idea but the thought was interesting, this much I know.
So what will actually happen is when the soul will leave the body it will tweet or post on Facebook that, all the pain and misery seems to have ended and it feels light. There is a vertical ascent and it seems that it is crossing layers of realization. Nothing seems to be permanent and it seems everything is in transition.
The soul will want to communicate with near and dear ones and it will do so. But the disadvantage will be that it will tempt it to get attached with the world it is leaving. It will not know what is there for it above but it will know what it is leaving down. It will see the true picture of people whom he thought its close ones.
It will wonder why it is going above? Who will receive him there? The dilemma will continue whether to just stay back keep on communicating in the transition phase or leave everything and go up, get disconnected.
It will not get time to decide, before that suddenly it will pick up speed and rush up. Memories will fade, it will forget who it was but will know where it has to go. It will attain salvation. The social media connect will get soulful? Will It?
So what will actually happen is when the soul will leave the body it will tweet or post on Facebook that, all the pain and misery seems to have ended and it feels light. There is a vertical ascent and it seems that it is crossing layers of realization. Nothing seems to be permanent and it seems everything is in transition.
The soul will want to communicate with near and dear ones and it will do so. But the disadvantage will be that it will tempt it to get attached with the world it is leaving. It will not know what is there for it above but it will know what it is leaving down. It will see the true picture of people whom he thought its close ones.
It will wonder why it is going above? Who will receive him there? The dilemma will continue whether to just stay back keep on communicating in the transition phase or leave everything and go up, get disconnected.
It will not get time to decide, before that suddenly it will pick up speed and rush up. Memories will fade, it will forget who it was but will know where it has to go. It will attain salvation. The social media connect will get soulful? Will It?
Sunday, January 2, 2011
New Year Resolution
Why you have to be the same always,
Year after year, the thought continues..
When we have something always in our life it just loses its existence for us and becomes a part of our life or maybe we blend in that to become one complete whole. We crave for the same distinction which was present when the thing was in front of our eyes or when we acknowledged its entity. Now that we got used to it, slowly the definition blurs. The lines fade, the boundaries melt and what remains is an abstract phenomenon which you feel but could not see.
I am going to discover those abstract phenomenons in my life in the year 2011. The limitations, the boundaries, the shapes all are going to disappear, the discovery will start....
Year after year, the thought continues..
When we have something always in our life it just loses its existence for us and becomes a part of our life or maybe we blend in that to become one complete whole. We crave for the same distinction which was present when the thing was in front of our eyes or when we acknowledged its entity. Now that we got used to it, slowly the definition blurs. The lines fade, the boundaries melt and what remains is an abstract phenomenon which you feel but could not see.
I am going to discover those abstract phenomenons in my life in the year 2011. The limitations, the boundaries, the shapes all are going to disappear, the discovery will start....
Friday, September 24, 2010
Some 17 years back
It was but another day.A simple,ordinary one with no great events,nothing. But what ensued, changed everything.The way things were,the way I viewed them and the way I viewed myself.
We all have this kind of a day in our lives. We recognize it or not is up to us.Sometimes we consciously do it, sometimes we fail to notice it, but it is there always.
I also had one, not recently but some 17 years back. That is indeed ages back so to say. I changed drastically for good or bad I don't know but I changed, I know that.
What happened which transformed me? Is that important to know? It may interest some, it may not. But yes the effect was massive.
The transition phase was kind of a hell. It was preparation time, the change was happening to prepare me for some difficult situations in life which included facing death of near and dear ones. Some betrayals, some hardships, some trials and some errors.
The upheaval continued for some time, made me strong, maybe too strong. I was not again the soft spoken,shy person I used to be. I liked the change in my persona. If you need to stabilize in life you have to keep your feet firmly on ground.Those tiptoeing and prancing around don't help in the long run.
The journey began, a height was reached, not to avoid what was below or to reach the top. I was there somewhere in the middle. Now that is a dangerous position when you are neither this side nor that. You fumble and ask yourself where you belong. You don't get an answer. Every one interprets you in their own way and they are right to do so.
So was the situation with me. I tried identifying with either side. I couldn't. Moreover my situation was just like a tree which was shaken with a storm, it was not uprooted, that would have been good, at least it would have known it has reached end. No it just bent at an angle. Now it was not standing tall, so couldn't look up at the sky neither it could associate itself with the ground.
The tree kept on swaying with each storm,I kept on enduring each obstacle. I didn't fall down, I didn't rise up.What an enviable situation I was in :) neither here not there.
Then again I realized the situation which I was in, was not so bad. Maybe it was my ignorance that I didn't realize it earlier. But yes gradually I started liking it, got comfortable. Life had its own plans though and as usual it never let me plan things.
I found myself again in the same situation which I was some 17 years back. This time though I had my maturity with me to tide over the difficulties I was facing. Will I change again, now what will happen?
Do I turn again in that soft spoken person who thought twice before speaking one sentence? Was it like I had to go back to square one? Is that ever possible?
My struggle or more correctly my self realization still continues.
The change happens but again am not realizing it. And it was all again in a day when nothing big happened, some small things, some usual events.
Days remain the same don't they, we change with them. Point is how much we realize that makes a whole lot of difference.
This blog can be a fiction, but what if it is a reality?
We all have this kind of a day in our lives. We recognize it or not is up to us.Sometimes we consciously do it, sometimes we fail to notice it, but it is there always.
I also had one, not recently but some 17 years back. That is indeed ages back so to say. I changed drastically for good or bad I don't know but I changed, I know that.
What happened which transformed me? Is that important to know? It may interest some, it may not. But yes the effect was massive.
The transition phase was kind of a hell. It was preparation time, the change was happening to prepare me for some difficult situations in life which included facing death of near and dear ones. Some betrayals, some hardships, some trials and some errors.
The upheaval continued for some time, made me strong, maybe too strong. I was not again the soft spoken,shy person I used to be. I liked the change in my persona. If you need to stabilize in life you have to keep your feet firmly on ground.Those tiptoeing and prancing around don't help in the long run.
The journey began, a height was reached, not to avoid what was below or to reach the top. I was there somewhere in the middle. Now that is a dangerous position when you are neither this side nor that. You fumble and ask yourself where you belong. You don't get an answer. Every one interprets you in their own way and they are right to do so.
So was the situation with me. I tried identifying with either side. I couldn't. Moreover my situation was just like a tree which was shaken with a storm, it was not uprooted, that would have been good, at least it would have known it has reached end. No it just bent at an angle. Now it was not standing tall, so couldn't look up at the sky neither it could associate itself with the ground.
The tree kept on swaying with each storm,I kept on enduring each obstacle. I didn't fall down, I didn't rise up.What an enviable situation I was in :) neither here not there.
Then again I realized the situation which I was in, was not so bad. Maybe it was my ignorance that I didn't realize it earlier. But yes gradually I started liking it, got comfortable. Life had its own plans though and as usual it never let me plan things.
I found myself again in the same situation which I was some 17 years back. This time though I had my maturity with me to tide over the difficulties I was facing. Will I change again, now what will happen?
Do I turn again in that soft spoken person who thought twice before speaking one sentence? Was it like I had to go back to square one? Is that ever possible?
My struggle or more correctly my self realization still continues.
The change happens but again am not realizing it. And it was all again in a day when nothing big happened, some small things, some usual events.
Days remain the same don't they, we change with them. Point is how much we realize that makes a whole lot of difference.
This blog can be a fiction, but what if it is a reality?
Saturday, August 28, 2010
I cry to know myself
Sometimes you need to put your mind to rest,let heart take over,let feelings run havoc,good bad whatever it may be,let them express themselves.You will ask what's the use? Well this is called cleansing of soul. Didn't we lose touch of it in our daily life? But how is that you let your inner consciousness come to the forefront?
It's not easy actually.You have buried it so deep it does not come up easily. You gradually lose touch of real you.But try this you will emerge stronger.The weaknesses which come up as tears and anger actually connect with your inner self. Any small event can be a trigger if you are ready to experiment.
I do this to connect with myself.Like I did yesterday. Nothing as such happened,only a small incident which does not deserve my attention at all but yes could have been used efficiently to connect with my inner self. I did just that and I realized so much sadness still remained in me, and the more I took it out I felt light and happy.
It helps to show weakness,if I cry and I am alone I know I have myself with me.No I don't need any support or shoulder to cry :). I can perfectly control my emotions but I wanted them to go loose, see where they go,how I feel at the spur of the moment.What thoughts cross my mind. I got to know myself much better than I did all these days.
I could have kept this exercise to myself but I wanted to take this further,yes I get weak to go more stronger.I wanted to share this since I don't feel ashamed at all I had tears,I had anger seething in me. It would let me emerge more as I want myself to be.
We have to face truth and when I say am optimist I am, after knowing all the negativity. I know the smile which comes to me now is genuine,not fake since I am not forcing. I am in full control of my emotions and yet they are not suffocated.
Do you think this kind of interaction session with yourself will help you?
It's not easy actually.You have buried it so deep it does not come up easily. You gradually lose touch of real you.But try this you will emerge stronger.The weaknesses which come up as tears and anger actually connect with your inner self. Any small event can be a trigger if you are ready to experiment.
I do this to connect with myself.Like I did yesterday. Nothing as such happened,only a small incident which does not deserve my attention at all but yes could have been used efficiently to connect with my inner self. I did just that and I realized so much sadness still remained in me, and the more I took it out I felt light and happy.
It helps to show weakness,if I cry and I am alone I know I have myself with me.No I don't need any support or shoulder to cry :). I can perfectly control my emotions but I wanted them to go loose, see where they go,how I feel at the spur of the moment.What thoughts cross my mind. I got to know myself much better than I did all these days.
I could have kept this exercise to myself but I wanted to take this further,yes I get weak to go more stronger.I wanted to share this since I don't feel ashamed at all I had tears,I had anger seething in me. It would let me emerge more as I want myself to be.
We have to face truth and when I say am optimist I am, after knowing all the negativity. I know the smile which comes to me now is genuine,not fake since I am not forcing. I am in full control of my emotions and yet they are not suffocated.
Do you think this kind of interaction session with yourself will help you?
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Changes matter or the way?
Changes come in small packages and they are loved that way the most. Why? Wouldn't you like something big? Believe it or not small joys make you more happy since they come in right size to affect you in the way you want. It registers actually. Does that mean you will look for small things to happen and leave aside the major happenings? No not at all but you would like yourself to be prepared fully for that major thing.
You like to enjoy moments, more precisely.You like to relish them in your own way. You don't like any disturbance, you want the change to engulf you in your own sweet way. That is the ideal situation.
But do things happen the way you desire? Of course not, they happen in their own way not how you want them. You are lucky when you find yourself admiring the way they happen.Think about it,they took place in their own way,you took it as a pleasant surprise.
Third situation is, change is happening in its own way, you are thinking of the way you want them.Now the disconnect is there.Does that mean, you will leave track of them or you would be so engrossed in your preferences that the way matters more than the actual thing? Tricky situation isn't it? But then it again depends on you.You can either stick to your likes and dislikes or try to analyze what is actually happening. Isn't that something you wanted but you prefer to forget it.
So changes can either bring you to that perfect situation, you always wanted; you can be lucky if the change is what you always wanted.Next you can be proactive to make the change work for you.
Which way you want the changes? The question remains-changes matter or the way? :)
You like to enjoy moments, more precisely.You like to relish them in your own way. You don't like any disturbance, you want the change to engulf you in your own sweet way. That is the ideal situation.
But do things happen the way you desire? Of course not, they happen in their own way not how you want them. You are lucky when you find yourself admiring the way they happen.Think about it,they took place in their own way,you took it as a pleasant surprise.
Third situation is, change is happening in its own way, you are thinking of the way you want them.Now the disconnect is there.Does that mean, you will leave track of them or you would be so engrossed in your preferences that the way matters more than the actual thing? Tricky situation isn't it? But then it again depends on you.You can either stick to your likes and dislikes or try to analyze what is actually happening. Isn't that something you wanted but you prefer to forget it.
So changes can either bring you to that perfect situation, you always wanted; you can be lucky if the change is what you always wanted.Next you can be proactive to make the change work for you.
Which way you want the changes? The question remains-changes matter or the way? :)
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